“July 20, 1926–Why laugh or jest with fools only to be saddened and ashamed when left alone.
July 26, 1926–For three days I have felt something take possession of me. Today I have a peculiar sense of having been emptied of something. There is a loss, what is it? The evening comes and quiet thought: The illusions for people have gone. It is this the loss. I feel a cold calm indifference and acceptance of a truth. There will be no more disappointments I must grow now to be worthy of the real souls whom I shall meet when I am ready.”
We are great and beautiful in proportion to the greatness and beauty we are capable of putting into our work and vice versa.”
“I was conscious of a great rhythm as [my arms] swung through the air, they seemed so long and powerful. Two months, first mornings and then all day I worked. Two weeks before it was done the money was all spent. I kept on working all day with more determination than ever than ever during those two weeks without food…I was not working in my own studio but in that of a young French woman in the court, who became interested in my ability and asked me to share her studio, hers being much better lighted. Most of the time she was not there as she was a student at l’Ecole des Beaux Arts. She had a dog and one morning as she left the studio I took a piece of meat and a potato from the plate of the dog, who ate very well. This I ate ravenously. For the first time in my life I was hungry, but this seemed of little importance in comparison to finishing the bust. It was _____(?) interesting to feel how I felt each day, my mind was very clear I could think with a great ease…”
(Page 5 from Nancy Elizabeth Prophet’s Paris Journal, via Brown University)
“Dec. 30, 1926– To——have been a woman——once.”
“August 13, ‘29– Let yourself flow out easily.”
“May 6, 1934– To dine with Edward and Julia Champion. They are frightened at my condition. I understand too well my situation is too difficult.
Mai 14– Life is so. long.
June 3– Begins again the .00 diet.”
From page 45 of Nancy Elizabeth Prophet’s journal.
(via Brown University)
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